vulnerable

i am easily depressed. i have anger problem i guess.but i am at my most terrible me when i am sad.

i will sleep for a very long time so that reality will not haunt me. i may sound like a coward, but that made me who i am

the worst thing that made me sad occurred last year..cant really recall the date or month. i had a very long conversation with somebody, i did a lil bit talking and just listening to the rest of the words. my heart shattered. never thought i would be hearing things like that for the rest of my life. i drove home as fast as i can cuz i really want to curl into a ball in my crib. i cried for hours till i fell asleep. i lost track of time, and when i woke up it was 2 in the morning. i took my bath, i perform my prayers and i went back to sleep. i didnt pick up any calls or reply any texts. i let time heal me, i let God heal me.. days after that another thing happened, i went back to my 'coma'.. a friend gave me a very long hug,but her hug didn't make me better. i just need some sleep, thats all.