grave

i came to realize ; what if i die tomorrow? would there be people at my funeral? who would be the last one i see before my last breath? would i die with my loved ones around me? would i die in my mother's arms? would i die alone while driving back from work? would people remember me as Hanis after a year? would people who love me stop grieving after 40days? who would be the last one to stand over my grave wishing i was still alive. did i do enough to be in God's Heavens?

if i had the chance to talk to everyone that i love the day before i die, i just want to tell each of them don't be sad over my death. but be happy reminiscing the good times we had. and forgive me for all my wrongdoings.

i may not have a normal family. i fought with my parents. i hate my sisters at times. i tried to stay away from home as much as i could when i was younger. but i thank God for keeping them safe for me every now and then. this post is for everyone in the world that keeps a place for me in their hearts. mak, ayah, kakak, kakyu, bb, hani, close friends and families, co-workers, etc. i may not list all but you know who you are. you are always in my prayers.