I : improved

to live in America is not an easy task. i remembered the first time is step my foot in America, i had only 160$ in hand. And my Malaysian Debit card was not much of a help. Thank God the hotel provided accommodation for the first month. And God loves me that God sent me to the states with Dayah. after 10days there, i went to apply my Social Security ID. I had problems there. My name is too long to fit their electronic forms and they did not have the same information in their database received from the homeland security. I was worried sick for sure that i am an alien here, and i couldn't get my ID done. in America, SSID is very crucial. i had to wait for 4weeks to get my SSID. i couldn't make a bank account, and the hotel could not pay me without my SSID. I had no money to rent a house with them, and i was lucky to have Dayah lending me some money. It was a lil bit frustrating, as i didn't have money to buy basic needs and food. But i managed to get myself through.

the reason this entry is titled I:improved is because i see myself as a better person since the first time i left home from college. i always had mom to call if i need some money, or if i need to deal with the bank or government matters. But here, i figured out so many things by myself. i am an independent girl. i improved myself in terms of making decisions, being matured and sanity. i wouldn't thought i would buy a sewing machine just because my uniforms are all huge and the cost of tampering them is higher than buying a machine. i improved myself by learning to hem my own clothes rather than sending to the tailor. because this is not Malaysia, i learned to cook nasi lemak, i made some Malaysian cakes(kuih-muih) as i crave Malay food. i never learned to cook those dishes back then because i could always buy them anywhere. and of course my mom's nasi lemak is the best yaw! i became more responsible towards the people around me. i am more socialable here compared in Malaysia. I make friends with everybody regardless their language,skin colour, age, sex and positions. maybe it is because the friendly culture over here is very welcoming. i learned to satisfy myself first with my work than to make others satisfy with it. i shared my knowledge with others without feeling forced. I improved myself in many ways, and i am proud to be me.

to be somewhere out of my norm is eventually a good thing to do!